I have been dealing with this fuh some time - largely by ignoring it - but it has been bothering meh and I want to try to get it off meh chest.
To put a long, long story short, I discovered dat my friend is a White Nationalist/racist. I put either/or because - in dis case at least - it more or less de same.
Anyway I know dis feller since I start school here (Grade 11) until now, so dat is about over 7 years now. I eh lime with him much for de past four years or so but I saw him now and den. He was still considered part of de 'regulars' I does lime with despite that.
All the while before he would make suspect remarks about jewish ppl and non-white people...subtle and short. So I was always left with a lingering thought "what dis fella scene really is..?". Let we call him "Eric". He from Russia, immigrated to Canada as a small man.
Anyway I shame to say now I used to let these subtleties from him pass, because dey were few and far between - although it doh seem so now- he otherwise seemed fine (b/c most of de rest of us are 'minorities') and as a meek Trini youth now coming to Canada, I grateful to make some friends.
My friendship with these other fellers have solidified but with Eric I always detached myself and he detached himself from the rest of we over de past three years especially.
Anyway about a week ago we all met up again, gorn fuh some Hakka Chinese food (W. China, usually does give yuh shittings). It was about five of we, I in de car with Eric and another Korean friend who ah thought was ah friend too. Eric and dis particular Korean feller are good friends and saw each other a lot during the times the rest of us didn't
Anyway I can't remember what inspire it but Korean feller start talking about black ppl except he wasn't referring to them as dat if yuh feel meh. Earlier in de day he was talkin about indian ppl and wasn't referring to dem as dat either (de 'p' word). In both cases it was real racist talk.
Anyway I ask him whaz he scene and he give me a setta bullshit, initially I thought he was joking but den again yuh doh make joke so and he was serious. He looking to Eric (in de front seat) fuh support but Eric wasnt' saying anything like a real coward. He jess nervously kinda laughing, he call me "PC" and upon further pressing by the korean feller, say he refuse to say anything else.
Now dem two does lime and I suspect Eric influence dis korean feller this way. I also recently discovered Eric was/is a frequent poster at Stormfront White Nationalist community, which is a message board for dem. I see some of he posts and for de sake of humanity, it hurt meh. He is an avid believer in de white supremacy and inferiority of others. It IS him posting so don't wonder otherwise. Me eh even know why I bother going to dat site, I guess I was too suspicious...
Anyway back to de scene in the car.
After all dat, I tell myself I had enough and come out from de car. They knew why. When I reach where all of we was going, I eh say 2 words to them.
I went because the other two fellers are my good bredren, and I doh want Eric and he puppet to twist de story if it arose.
So dat is de summary.
I know fuh myself I eh going to have anything to do with these fellers again.
But as a young person still with a sense of ideals these incidents (esp when de mentality does last, i.e Eric) does shake up yuh sense of stability and hope in society, and does leff yuh feeling dejected. Especially since Eric is de first or one of de first 'friend' I make in Canada...it does have meh thinking, what are de chances of dat, or exactly how many ppl does think like he?
Eric invite them fellers (my two bredren) to a bbq by he house dis weekend, he eh tell me nuttin. My dilemma is, is it my place to inform these my close friends of Eric and his puppet's mentality (because my bredren seem clueless and consider them friends), or should I let dem find out themselves and they will react however dey see fit.
A strong part of me want to do the first option and plans to do so
I like my shyt talk but I go appreciate some serious, rational insight please...like Filho/Kicker-esque ting